Cookbooks!

I think to be a Nutritionist-Dietician (ND) is not my dream in life.

i think i'd probably die thinking a lot of food without even eating them. You see, we always plan foods for a certain diet and i showed no enthusiasm with that, maybe because I don't cook. i just love eating :)

that's it! i don't want menu planning because i barely know enough. I know a lot of foods specially from my province where most of the people lives a middle class or working class life. i live with a working class family. So, if you ask me to plan for a family from a low economic status, I'd probably provide you a one-week menu. But if you ask me to plan a one-day menu for a patient suffering from CVD who's from a well off family, then i'd say good bye right there and then.

realizing this, how a coward i am, i think it's time to face this challenge. good to know what my weakness is. there, i need to read a lot of cookbooks! hahaha

kay hambal sang professor ko

hambal sang isa ka professor ko dapat sige daw ko sulat sang mga Hiligaynon poetries. siguro kay gamay lang man ang gasulat nga mga Ilonggo. bisan di gid ko Ilonggo, pero ang mother tongue ko Hiligaynon.

kay nahinumduman ko man ning ginhambal niya sa akon. sige testingan ko gid nga makasulat sang mga istorya kag tula nga Hiligaynon. kag tani, habang gadugay, ma-well-versed na man ko sa Hiligaynon. Kay lantawa bala, Hindi purong Hiligaynon ning blog nga ini. hindi pa gid madalum. anyway, I do believe in the saying "practice makes perfect" (though no one's perfect :))

tama siya dapat gid isulong ang aton nga kultura kag tradisyon. isa na ka pamaagi ang paggamit sang aton vernacular languages hindi lang sa pag-converse with your fellow kaprobinsya but also sa pagsulat bisan diri sa blog.

Isulong ang pagsulat gamit ang vernacular languages. (pero hinay-hinay lang ni..hehehe.. masulat gyapon ko in english, mas damo lang english)

a blog for a superlative friend

to you.. who may find no reason to read this blog.

i think you are really great! thank you because you are my superlative friend.

I don't know if you will find this blog and read it (hopefully, someday) so that you will know how special our friendship is.

If you only knew how much I value our friendship (and I know you do too). You are my superlative friend. My soul sister as we call each other and the other's lost twin.

You, as an individual, are really great! I'm very proud of you. I'm sorry for I don't know how to show it. but in my heart, you're a superstar! I look up to you as you are the best in your academics. You are very special, even special in the eyes of God.

nobody thinks we would be really good friends that we reached the status of bffs. hahaha. Cause they see our differences - the way we think, especially when it comes to relationships and etc. but that's how we are. that's what made us friends. we tend to clash but in the end, we are le feu d'artifice. :)

if i really want to share everything about this friendship, our friendship, it will take days for me to finish because there's a lot to tell.

honestly, i was always hurt because i think that you didn't think i can be someone whom you can also talk with even with relationships and some other things. i never forget that one time when you said, there are things that you cannot tell me and there are things that i need not to know. I hope it's some kind of protection but to where? to what? to whom? that puzzled me and really degraded me as your friend, your best friend. You said you need the power of alcohol to tell those things. and of course, i wouldn't know about that because i don't drink. and maybe that's one that causes a barrier. i don't want to think it that way. but it shows to me that there are some deeper things you cannot share to me but only with your drinking companions. alcohol is healthy with the right amount. you're right. and i don't want to argue with that. Just don't get drank :)

yes. you have a point with that. and I respect you. I'm just hurt. hahaha. but it will fade away. i know it will. just have the right people with whom you share your sentiments. I hope I'm one of those you considered as the "right people".

that's me making tampo.

and we had a lot of tampos. hahaha. that way we get to know each other deeper and the other's character development. I'm fine with tampos because I'm more of tampurorot than you. I'm sorry and thank you for your understanding and patience with this friendship. you seldom make tampo. hahaha. but it's one time bigtime, that you will make it as your FB status. (takot ako!)

i may not be the person whom you will call first (after your mom) on a great thing or bad thing that will happen to you. but always know that i would really be glad to spend time with you even if i'm the last resort.

all those hurt, they are nothing compared to what our friendship really is. I don't need to convince you about this, because i know that you believe the same too. we are each other's back. I will always be willing to step down for you because i know you will do the same too. i love this friendship. It's awesome and cool.

i love you my superlative friend. I pray for your success and I pray for your personal and spiritual growth. I pray for a deeper relationship with Jesus. I pray for the dreams that you shared of coming true. i pray for your "the ONE" that he will forever court you even if you're husband and wife.

I pray for this long lasting friendship. I would like to let you know that I'm very confident with this friendship. and I want more. :)

I really hope you get fluttered with this. this is a tribute to you (though there's tampo inserted) :)

current obsession: blogs

i don't blog much. but as of the moment, I blog a lot of things and i follow a lot of bloggers. it's really fun. i hope i will learn a lot from them.

Unconditional Love #3: Deeper in Me

i could have broken down
[at this very moment]
i could have seen the world
in a very negative prospective
i could have felt my failure
[which i actually am]

but You, O Lord, You've covered them all
and let me see Your Beeauty, Your Glory

I was inadequate,
even unworthy of Your glory
i've been restless,
i've been coward
i've been staying in mediocrity (even until now)

i always want excellence
to glorify You
i always want to reflect Your glory
to bring souls on your feet

but You, o Lord, has already ensured
that You are pleased with me
You love me for who I am
I love who I am because of You

Your mighty hands is working
deeper in me
You got deeper in me.
You are a personal God

You believe in me
You've given me power
You entrusted me
You made me great

"and I will sing of Your love forever."

*also written during a 115 class. We shuld never thought we are a failure. God is hurt because we are His masterpieces. I hurt God that time when I see myself as a failure and everything I do was a failure.
We should stop thinking that it's about us. because it really isn't. remember that God is in control. When we feel this way, thinking about ourselves, all we need to do is to go to God. and He will make you remember of who He is :)

Unconditional Love #2: Your Love is Greater than Mine

will You hold my hand?
I want to feel You, now
will You wipe my tears away?
You are the comfort of my heart
Will you embrace me now?
You calm my restless soul

Can I hold Your hand?
because with You I can stand
Can I touch Your Face?
You're the One I'm looking for
Can I hug You now?
All the time, You made me glad

You've been with me
You are right here beside me
You keep me in Your hands
and never let me go
because of Your unconditional love for me
I cannot turn away from You
I can only write our story, our love story
of how You know me,
of Your unfailing love for me
that covers me
and keeps me going on

at this moment, I am down -
very down, indeed
My academics failing,
the fruit of the Spirit cannot be seen in me
sinning was in me

How could You still love me like before?
How could You still call me Your Princess?
I know I'm not worthy
but You still called me Yours

and now, You let me write this long note
because You want me to be reminded
of Your great love that saved me
and took me away from the bondage of sin

You've found me.
I'm glad I'm here.



*written last sem during my 115 class. i felt so down and troubled then because of my academics. and I can only lean to no one but the Lord. I thank Him for the rest and comfort He provided there after ;)

just when I thought there was time to breath and just when I felt you like me too

just when I thought there's time to breath...

this week was definitely not the week when most of us were just watching our favorite movie or chatting with friends.

this week was nothing but a breathtaker!

recap of last week. the only thing that was really significant was when our excellency,whom we hide in the name of Derek, called the Ravishing Agents (RAs) which I am part of. She called us once again for a performance evaluation. she was mad because we didn't meet a deadline (again). that was really awful. but i was really angry that time. before the meeting started, the RA head texted everyone of the threat Derek infused to us - that, anyone who couldn't make it or who will be late for the meeting will stay until January 30 only. of course, I didn't like it. she didn't have to do that anyway because our priority is academics. Good for me that I can make it, how about the others. anyway, so she said that the next 2 weeks including this week is about evaluation.

but i really can't take it anymore and i had this spur of the moment decision. i told her i'm out. she asked me why and i answered. in the end, she still was very proud. she asked me to give my resignation letter. then, i went to D'Man (DM) of which a mistake. I should have went to D'Man first before her, Derek. anyway, D'man asked me to think again. to breath and breath and think again. that's the real Boss!

so, after thinking and thinking and thinking, even with a lot of academic loads, it was in my mind most of the time. i asked my mom if we had money for a boarding house. she called me and asked what happened and i told her. then, papa said "i should stay until the end of the sem." they know best so i said,"ok if that is Derek's decision. it's all up to her now."

the other RAs, the Guapos decided to call it off. one even looked for a boarding house all weekend and had paid the boarding fee. hindi naman siya eager no. well, i think we cannot stop them because we all wanted to.

my bestfriend also wanted to quit. I told her if you go, i go. i think i can't make it without someone like her. but most of all I can't make it without my God. I'm constantly reminded of my purpose and I work for the bigger picture.

anyway, this week was ACADEMICS-filled week. i got 2 major exams, a lot of assignments and a major major paper of which i had to ditch 2 classes just to finish it. and I won't do it ever again. now the 2 exams and the major major paper ended, only 2 assignments were left and a chore (laundry!).

Just when I thought I had time to breath, God gave me REST!

just when i thought you like me too..

oh this guy, i'm liking and thinking he likes me too turns to be just another guy, just another crush. isipin ko na lang bakla siya, so that i won't fall for him! hahaha.. and then i remembered Proverbs 4:23

"above all, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."

Just when I thought you like me too, God teaches me the value of purity and patience. He turned me back to Him and hugged me tight. sarap!

a new resolution

not a new year's resolution but just a resolution...

since facebook or FB as we fondly call it is kind of everything - you can post how you feel, what you had experience, business and academics (through status messages, pictures, videos and blogs), i think it also is the one of the best ways to encourage people who may had read your message. especially for me who is not the texting type.

so i resolved that whenever i had the chance to log in, I should post one or two inspiring quotes or verses from the BIBLE... that's one way of being a blessing to others.

the best things are in store

some of my faith goals this year:

1. academic excellence
2. one disciple
3. small group members' growth
4. work excellence
5. successful GOLDEN WEDDING ANNIVERSARY of lolo Berto and Lola Consing
6. 98% NMAT Score
7. nice boarding house
8. PGH
9. budget control
10. lose weight, achieving DBW of 47kg :)
11. Lead a team in Kids Church
12. perfect summer
and a lot more...

"but blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him"
- Jeremiah 17:7 [NIV]

"commit to the Lord whatever you do, and He will establish your plans."
- Proverbs 16:3 [TNIV]
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got news for you

don't miss a class ever again!

the need to go back

these past few months, i found myself with empty QQT pages for november up to now. actually, there were a number of pages but you can count them with your fingers. I don't know why.

moreover, I didn't join the Prayer and Fasting Season of the Church. I think i don't have the right motive and am not ready yet. I got my mind very disoriented. I'm always asked by friends if i'm ok or if i have a problem.

and yes, i do have a problem and no, i'm not ok. i just pretend to be.

looking back i noticed that i'm more of a sad person now. I used to be the jolly and cheery person. but now, most of the time, my eyes were glued to "kawalan"

and I don't know why. now, I'm stressed because of that. I don't know what steps to take or solve the problem, or how i would recount this bothering experience to my friends.

all in all, it all boils down to going back and spend that great time with Dydda. I may be feeling empty, that the Holy Spirit flew away from me, of which I don't theink so. a lot i've been feeling lately that i easily fall into tears.

and thats whay we need more of God because God loves us soo much

Spur of the Moment Decisions

and I always end up to this.

I'm sorry because these place me and the people surrounding me to a far more difficult situation.

I was involved in a written fight with my co-workers a month ago. Another, my position is at-risk. all because of the spur of the moment decisions. I let my emotions, specifically anger, controls me.

I hurt the people involved, I hurt myself and most of all, I hurt God.

It always ended up the wrong way. of course, all won't be well if at first, it didn't went well.

I wish i could revert time. No! that's impossible.

change! that's the real deal.

breath. breath. breath.